Tuesday, April 22, 2014

dried



                            I, you, he, she, we.
                            In the garden of mystic lovers
                            these are not true distinctions.  -- Rumi


(112)

I totally had other plans for the photo today BUT today was a day full of sunshine and therefore, we had to be outside. We spent most of the day outside therefore, no time to do any sort of work inside. So, there you have it - a dried hydrangea, or I might say, a hydrangea in a phase of perfection. Yet, I am well aware that every phase of the hydrangea is one of perfection therefore there is no other distinction in the phases of hydrangea but perfection.

Truth.




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Monday, April 21, 2014

the happy couple

Every Spring I am truly astonished by the wildlife that appears in my backyard.


(111)

The ducks are back! I'm glad they appeared last evening rather than this morning. In the past they have had a tendency to announce their arrival early in the morning, suffering what appears to be identity crisis, waking us all up at the crack of dawn with their incessant, insisting quacks.



I'm glad this little lady has already found a mate what with all that I've heard about the brutal way single female ducks are treated later in the season. I followed her around while her mate kept an eye on me from the rooftop. I tried to get the Lotus Bud off the couch to see the ducks, but she was tired. It was her first day out and about after a long three-day battle with a bad flu.

Eventually this couple was sick of me and with a call to one another, they were off into another neighbor's yard.


Compare these photos and you will see that they have some matching feathers.  I do hope they choose our yard again for some egg-laying! Our backyard elm tree is perfect for all sorts of habitation.






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Sunday, April 20, 2014

city birds




(110)

Having recently heard about the housing problems that birds face in the fair city of Minneapolis (foreclosures, McNests, gentrification, etc, etc),  I started paying attention to the birds in my own backyard.


On a daily basis I see how the squirrel clan comes in and takes all the choice foods, even the stuff that's been left out specifically for the birds. And there's yet another bully in the yard.


Yesterday I saw that migration has had an effect as well, an entirely different species of sparrow have moved into the hood. Because I have dealt with discrimination on my own block, I do hope these newcomers manage to find a home and ignore the bird gangs that have taken over the wood-pile high-rise.


I'm starting to feel like I'm in the middle of a reality show drama -- Stay tuned for more episodes of The Real House Sparrows of Minneapolis.





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Saturday, April 19, 2014

exhaustion

Nature doesn't rush,
Yet everything is accomplished.  ---  Unknown author but found by the Big D



(109)

In the middle of every month I come to a place of total exhaustion. Now is the time for rest. I try hard to ignore all those things that didn't get done and I try to empty my mind of all that still needs to be done. I want to linger in these promises of warm days and relax myself in the faith that the season has turned.

This the lull in the month and the lull between seasons. The snow has finally found another place to dump and summer is just waiting to fill the region with bounty.






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Friday, April 18, 2014

a night of big dreaming

Chowgirls Parlour

(108)

I went from a day full of child vomit to an evening full of public speaking - versatile and adaptable is the best way to describe a Gemini Lotus and her life.

Last night was the unveiling of our expansion plans to the Co-op Owners. Usually we have less than twenty people at these events (counting a few spouses). This year we has nearly 200! And we were stunned by the turn-out. There was standing room only in the back. It was a great event and I had to begin the meeting with a little update about the Board's work. Phew! Glad that's over.

The EFC expansion rendering
 It was a surreal experience for this low-tech, flip-phone girl. People were tweeting things I said and posting real-time photos and updates on Facebook. Nonetheless I loved talking to the Owners who seemed super jazzed about the plans. An article in our local newspaper got the scoop about our recent property acquisition along with the architectural renderings which probably explains the large turnout. We also aired the new video that was filmed last Thursday.

It was all very exhausting but all very, very fun.

first time seeing a washboard in action

I got to end the night with a drink at the 331 Club in NE Minneapolis where I also got to hear some awesome music from Mike Munson and Mikkel Beckman.

In the Fall of 2013 when I began "big dreaming" I put it out to the Universe that I wanted to be a community leader. And that's exactly what I felt last night. It was all that I imagined it would, everything except the day full of child vomit and 5 loads of laundry.

Now I have to switch gears and prepare for the class I will teach this Saturday morning. It's my last class of the year and I'm looking forward to the break and the opportunity to focus in on these other parts of my life: family and board service, but...ummm...hopefully without the vomit.

I look tired, don't I?   photo by Kristina Gronquist







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She did it!



(107)

For the first time, the Lotus Bud made it through her school concert!!! I am so ridiculously proud of her! Last year it didn't go so well. She broke down in tears when she saw the large crowd and I nearly cried watching her trying to brave it out. This year I was nearly in tears and they were tears of pride.


She even surprised us with the special song where a group of five kids got in front and sang about clouds. She didn't tell me about this ahead of time and I was stunned by all the cute-ness.


Ever since the last concert fiasco, we've been encouraging her to practice in front of big groups of family and that strategy seems to have worked.


That silly goose did so very good!

And I'm glad she had a good time because the very next morning she got hit by a stomach flu. It's been all vomit and fatigue since then. The bad with the good, the natural way of life.





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Wednesday, April 16, 2014

out with the old


(106)

Make room for new life, new seasons, new possibilities.

I had little idea of how much it would snow today. I had no idea that the day would get me frustrated and frenzied.I had many things to do today. I had no idea that this day would lead me to this re-design yet I'm happy to have tossed everything aside for what little that I have accomplished. 

There are lessons in the pine cones, right? This precious evidence of life must contain a lesson other than the one about reproduction. There must be a lesson about randomness and uncertainty, faith and perseverance, adventure and serendipity. I have no idea what they are exactly only that there must be some truth in it somewhere.

Anything to distract me from the snow.







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Tuesday, April 15, 2014

attitude of gratitude: strange frenzy

There is a strange frenzy in my head,
of birds flying,
each particle circulating on its own.
Is the one I love everywhere? -- Rumi

(105)

I started having visions of Lotus Bud's future. This is a first for me. I imagined her with her own child and the thing that brought a huge smile to my face was the words "Grandpa Dave." More revelations came quickly thereafter. My mother had an "arranged marriage" and while I was growing up there was a lot of talk about "arranged marriages" and "love marriages." That was followed quickly by the idea that I would also have an arranged marriage. Is it no wonder then that I eloped with my man? I married for love and never looked back. I reached out and took that which was denied to me in my childhood: love. Now I think when my little one grows up she will have the chance to understand what it is to love oneself above all else. This is important to me as I struggle to not only love myself but also to be my own friend. This is what generations are for, are they not? The opportunity to seek out what was denied in the previous generation.

Truth is I wonder every day whether I can love my child as much as I love my husband. But it has taken me twenty years to realize the intensity of love I have for my man so I will cut myself some slack and have faith in the fact that the love I feel for my child grows steadily everyday. And for that understanding I am grateful.

Because I know that my capacity to love and to know love is as great as the sun and the moon and the stars, the first few shared favorites of this week have to do with the sun and the moon and the stars.

What if the other planets were as close as the moon?

Eclipse fest for the next 18 months....yeah, talk about strange frenzy.

Fresh Tiger Stripes on Saturn's Moon

And my favorite pins about The Sky and The Stars 

I've decided that after I'm done with board service I am going to focus on my love of bookmaking with some classes at the Minnesota Center for Book Arts. But first I'm going to try my hand at some diy paper-making AND binding my journals in leather. Any ideas about where to start with the paper-making?

"Books make you a glutton for life."

In my role as board president I compile monthly reading lists and on those list I always include some "mind candy." This is one I will include for May: The bizarre world of chicken beauty pageants. 

I got a real kick out of this Judgmental Map of Minneapolis but as you can see from the comments, not everyone appreciates this sort of humor. My friends in the area labeled "Compton of the North" thought the map was hilarious and I would just like to point out that the Lotus Bud and I hang out once a week at a park on the Mississippi that is in an area "too scary to investigate." Good, stay out of my park!

One step at a Time

This reminds me of my early twenties.

My Spring photo series is quickly becoming a meditation on Rumi.

One step forward, two giant steps back - the most apt description of Spring in Minnesota. We woke today to temps in the twenties and we are facing yet another snow dump this week, followed by a week in the seventies? Oh well. At least there's green poking out the ground now so the snow can't last long. I hope!



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